Off & Running
a Blog of Life on the Run


Little Melanie SpringDid I ever tell you the story of the three-year-old blond girl who had an imaginary friend named Sisarina? She was a creative kid who had a knack for having a ton of energy without needing a lot of sleep. She made up big stories and had no trouble telling them to everyone who wanted to listen. Even her grade school teachers commented on her report cards that she was an imaginative kid who would do well if she was able to stay on task and not talk during class.

That little girl's personality is still pretty much the same at 33. I am a big thinker. A dreamer. A creative with a huge imagination. It's obviously an innate thing for me.

Growing up in Western New York I watched my friends graduate high school, get married and have kids. After seeing my sister get married just after I graduated college, I realized I needed to get a move on it. I started dreaming of a family and a nice house. For a short period of time, I did it - I got married, divorced, bought a house, lost the house, and realized I wasn't dreaming anymore. This is a great dream for some people, but I wasn't myself anymore.

For the last 4.5 years of growing Sisarina, a company named after my imaginary friend, I've been dreaming up all sorts of things and making them happen. But every time I think I've dreamed a huge dream, I find a bigger one around the corner. There's one right now that feels way too big, but I've been praying circles around it.

Pastor Mark Batterson talks about big dreams in The Circle Maker & Draw the Circle. He says that we shouldn't pray for things that don't require God, like loving our neighbors or doing well at our jobs. We can do those without His help. We should be praying about the things that wouldn't happen without his divine intervention. Those Goliath things that David could never take on without His strength behind him. 

"The greatest tragedy in life is the prayers that go unanswered simply because they go unasked." This huge dream I've had for years just keeps getting bigger and requires a lot of money, a lot of trust that it will not fail, and a huge purpose for the mission of it all. The ONLY way it could happen is if God puts His hand in it and puts the right people in front of me. It's terrifying, yet exciting. It's taught me how to pray harder and bigger, but it's already got me dreaming even bigger than I've ever dreamed before.

"If you aren't willing to be perplexed, you'll never be amazed. It's a package deal."

A song that keeps coming up from all of this dreaming: "Set a fire down in my soul that I can't contain and I can't control." - United Pursuit Band. I need this dream to rage out of control. It's something that will affect SO many people and give life to a community of people who need it.

What's your huge dream? What's stopping you from making them happen? 


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