Off & Running
a Blog of Life on the Run

November
26,
2012

It's tough going with the flow when you're a Type-A personality. I'm even the girl who has the no-plan plan so I can be spontaneous. I am working on changing that through this journey. The #10 question I'm asking people I meet on my Melanie on the Run journey is about going with the flow.  This trip is super aggressive with a bit of wiggle room, so I have to be careful or it'll be a two-month trip.

Yesterday, I woke up really early in Denver, CO (East Coast time seems to still be in my bones) and had my best friend's mom's advice in my head about praying. She told me to lay still and just see what floated into my head. A song came in:

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found


Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

- Home, Phillip Phillips

For the few days before, there was a sour feeling in my stomach every time I thought of leaving Denver. I realized it was because I knew how hard a trip it would be to Portland and down the coast with the short schedule I had. I hadn't planned to go in the first place but everyone convinced me it was a great idea. The closer I got, the more things fell apart. My place to stay, my second place to stay, moving days around, ll the driving... my body started feeling the stress.

When I realized the words to this song, I knew I needed to cut Portland out of this trip and fly out with more time to spend there. As soon as I made the decision, I felt much less stressed. I know it seems rather insignificant to you, but this was a pivotal moment for me. Allowing myself to go with the flow and change plans is a huge step for me.

Driving through the Rockies in awe for hours, I was relaxed and focused on the beauty around me instead of my worry. I have never seen anything so incredible in my life. It makes me even more excited to see the Grand Canyon. I kept repeating this song in my head, then outloud, and even heard it on the radio before getting to Salt Lake City. It turned a truly worrisome trip to SLC into a peaceful experience.

This trip is about growth. Growing is painful. Maybe someday I'll be able to explain how painful. Over the last 4 weeks, I've put everything in storage, put myself in the hands of my friends, put 2,500 miles on my car, met incredible people, interviewed businesses about their brands, interviewed those I've stayed with about their lives, and given myself over to the faith it will all work out.

I'd love to say I'm ready for the next learning experience, but I'm a little afraid of what it will be. It's obvious these experiences are just the beginning of the learning process, but "a thousand mile walk starts with one step." Onward, ho!

Settle down it’ll all be cleared Don’t pay no mind to the demons they fill you with fear Trouble it might drag you down If you get lost, you can always be found Just know your not alone cause I’m gonna make this place your home

Read more: PHILLIP PHILLIPS - HOME LYRICSSettle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home
Settle down it’ll all be cleared Don’t pay no mind to the demons they fill you with fear Trouble it might drag you down If you get lost, you can always be found Just know your not alone cause I’m gonna make this place your home

Read more: PHILLIP PHILLIPS - HOME LYRICS
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